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I tend to believe that bad things happen in three's.Then I get a cosmic break for awhile. I found out I had cancer cells last week, at 3:30AM this morning my boyfriend broke up with me ...while on a date with someone else and today I get to find out if I keep my job or not. I am soo not looking forward to the rest of the day. 

*sigh*

I would be on the verge of a mental breakdown if not for my other rule of 3 where I start thinking of 3 good things. Like I have my limbs and teeth and people who care about me. Instead of cheering me up like usual,they are pretty much just acting as a wall to fend off feeling overwhelmed. Its a very thin wall. I know everyone has a rough time and eventually I will get through it but that knowledge doesnt make things any easier at this moment.

This very moment.

Right now.I have to sit at my desk with all of this on my mind while waiting for my sentence to be handed down to me at work. All of this while quietly suffering from a break up and the stress of worrying about my health to compound it all. Oh and it freakin' raining out....

Right now "Bruises" by Chairlift is on my iPod and normally its a cheerful song for me, but right now its kinda tugging on me. Maybe its the lyrics. They apply to everything and everyone at the moment.

Bruises by Chairlift

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do headstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you
But everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you.

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do handstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you but everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh.

I grabbed some frozen strawberries so I could ice your bruising knees
But frozen things they all unfreeze and now I taste like....
All those frozen strawberries I used to chill your bruising knees,
Hot July ain't good to me
I'm pink and black and blue for you.

I got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue

Got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh