Mimi Loveless’ blog

I tend to believe that bad things happen in three's.Then I get a cosmic break for awhile. I found out I had cancer cells last week, at 3:30AM this morning my boyfriend broke up with me ...while on a date with someone else and today I get to find out if I keep my job or not. I am soo not looking forward to the rest of the day. 

*sigh*

I would be on the verge of a mental breakdown if not for my other rule of 3 where I start thinking of 3 good things. Like I have my limbs and teeth and people who care about me. Instead of cheering me up like usual,they are pretty much just acting as a wall to fend off feeling overwhelmed. Its a very thin wall. I know everyone has a rough time and eventually I will get through it but that knowledge doesnt make things any easier at this moment.

This very moment.

Right now.I have to sit at my desk with all of this on my mind while waiting for my sentence to be handed down to me at work. All of this while quietly suffering from a break up and the stress of worrying about my health to compound it all. Oh and it freakin' raining out....

 

Right now "Bruises" by Chairlift is on my iPod and normally its a cheerful song for me, but right now its kinda tugging on me. Maybe its the lyrics. They apply to everything and everyone at the moment.

Bruises by Chairlift

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do headstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you
But everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you.

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do handstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you but everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh.

I grabbed some frozen strawberries so I could ice your bruising knees
But frozen things they all unfreeze and now I taste like....
All those frozen strawberries I used to chill your bruising knees,
Hot July ain't good to me
I'm pink and black and blue for you.

I got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue

Got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh

 

 

 

I dont know who decided it, but our office no longer will provide coffee or tea in the office.So as we stumble into this place in the early morning hours & as we have to slog through the day we will be without the one thing that helps us get anything done.

 

I would applaud the masterful work of pure evil if only I had the enegy.

 

Bastards.

 

 

 

Yesterday I got a call from my doctors office with alarming news. Whats even more alarming in my opinion is that it wasn't even my doctor. My doctor gave me one set of results and the other doctor a whole new set of results. WTF are these people doing? I want a fucking apology for careless way the are treating me. Today I am getting a whole new doctor that was recommended to me. My original doctor is an idiot. I am seriously going to make a formal complaint against that office. It all started last Monday. When I had to go to the hospital for abdominal pain, where they found a huge giant cyst on my ovary which my Gyno did not find the week before. Now the doctors in the emergency room after preforming a sonogram were incredibly worried and told me surgery was likely the option I had. The recommended that I go immediately to my doctor, I called and got blown off till Thursday.After having to go to the emergency room. When I finally got to my doctor she gave meds for a UTI.I dont have a UTI, along with medicine for a yeast infection, in case I get one from taking the meds for the UTI I dont have. Why not give me Robitussin in case I get a cold for goodness sakes?!!! At least give me a Xanax so I dont feel the urge to get up and get violent.

Moving on, I tell my doctor what led to me calling 911, she tells me maybe my cyst burst and maybe theres fluid casuing me pain.When I told her what the doctors at the hospital said and mentioned I was worried she then said

"Well I can give you a another sonogram appointment and we can see if the cyst went away on its own or got bigger".

WTF?!!!!! She said this almost like she was fucking humoring me! Mind you I got a sonogram hours after the pain and there the cyst was, unbursted. The doctor did not even request my results from the hospital.

It only gets better by the way. I asked her about my blood tests and my PAP. She said my blood came back clean and she is waiting on my PAP still. (After 2 weeks?) Yesterday another doctor from the same office calls me and tells me there is a problem with my blood and the PAP. Not my doctor by the way. Another doctor from the office. Liek my doctor couldnt be bothered to tell me what was going on.

I was told to come in for a procedure where they get to butcher me for shits and giggles apparently. Not only has all of this caused me an incredible amount of stress and confusion, but my body fucking hurts and they want to do more painful things to it.I m going this week to another doctor. These freaks are not going near my body.

It wouldnt be so bad if my friends & boyfriend gave me a bit more damn sympathy. My friends have been mysteriously missing, my mom keeps telling me its all fine she went through it and blah blah blah.(Its not in fact the same thing) My boyfriend...well he has that mindset of "Its not his problem so why should he worry." So all in all Im feeling pretty shitty on all levels. Spiritually I guess Im ok. Im not questioning and doing the whole "Why me" I am questioning what the fuck is really wrong with me and where the fuck are my "friends" who have yet to visit me. I can deal with my issues as they come along as long as I know what I need to deal with. *sigh*

Okay...I think I'm done venting. 

 

I swear this is my Doctor...only less fabulous.

This reminded me of all my Zombie lovin' friends!

 

 

 

I got this from http://porphgyrl.vox.com/.  I would live a rather dull life without her LOL Cat posts.

 

 

 

I was feeling groovy when I got into work a little while ago till I noticed something horrible. I forgot to bring my iPod. Its killing me. Even if I dont listen to to it, I like to have it with me for when I do want to listen to it.Also my interoffice email is down. Which means I have to tell everyone and thier mother to send orders to my regular email. Which will just irritate me throughout the day. I hate when orders goto my regular mail.I also forgot to get enough bus fare for the trip home today....have I mentioned how I am no overly fond of Mondays?

No me gusta lunes!  ( I dont like Mondays)

 

Just look at my radio...sitting there empty, without iPod. Im going to have to live with regular live radio today.

 

 

 

 

 

 

LOOK HOW SAD MY RADIO LOOKS WITH ITS LABEL " MADE FOR iPOD"

 

 

 

 

 

I hope the day goes by fast and good things happen. Oh wait! My interoffice mail is working again! Ok good sign! Good sign!

 

I was feeling wanted, desired and predatory when I woke up and showered this morning...even with a slight hang over.

In short I was grooving to predatory feminie vibes and decided to wear my Lip Service Division LS top to work. I look like a corporate dominatrix! If anyone gives me shit I'm putting them over my knee!

 

I wish I had worn my boots and brought my riding crop! I wonder if I were to waltz in my managers office in that get up and demand a raise...would I get one? Who knows maybe it would work and maybe he likes it better when he has the riding crop. I am deliciously naughty and do deserve a good spanking now and then.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I took one more pic where it looks like I'm doing a Zeig Heil.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I love Fridays...even if I feel like I could use a few more hours of shut eye.

So yesterday did my 5k run/ walk thingy around the Brickell area of Miami, Florida.

 

 

Mercedes Benz Corporate run

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                       SUNSET                 LOOKING BEHIND       ME & MARITZA DYING TO FINISH!!!!

OMG I thought I was going to die! I did catch a cool pic on my phone of the sunset from the bridge over water, which was cool.

 

And when we got back to the tent my homies were there! We ended up going to Fat Tuesdays. Not that I had a choice because if I was going to catch a ride with someone I had to go there. Plus I was dying for refreshment anyway.

 

 

 

EDDIE

 

 

 

 

 

CIRO & BILLY

 

 

 

We had a blast! I grabbed a ride with Ciro and man when I got home I took the hottest shower! When I was done rinsing a days worth of sweat and grime off, J came by &  I got to hang out with my baby which was cool because I hadnt had a chance to see him all week. Very groovy.

*sigh*

what a cool day

 

I have things to address about the current pandemic...

 

 

1. It sounds dirty, like an STD you got from doing something particularly nasty. Sounds like a Piggy venereal disease.

2. Let's  call it "The  Piggy Virus" from now on or maybe Piggy Flu.

3. I am tired of being asked if I am worried about it. Of course I am.

4. I am crossing off Asians, Mexicans and anyone from New York off my list of people to lick.The gardeners seem relieved.

5. I keep reading about everything except symptoms of the of the stupid "Piggy Virus".

6. Is there an outbreak of People Flu amongst Mexican / Asian & New York pigs? Are they worried about the Piggy Virus also or trying to get a hold of the wide spread panic the People Flu is causing amongst the pigs.

7. I think we should progress to the mask wearing stage at this point...if only to be spared many of my coworkers faces...and germs.

8. WTF happened to the Asian Bird Flu? Is that still floating around too?

Have we dealt with Bird Flu? 

I'm going to snack on vitamins all day buy some Lysol.

 

Me & Michi went to Burrittoville while waiting for some "news".

 

 

   

 

We drank Coronas while waiting...

 

 

 

 

 

Then we got the "news". All was ok!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

So while he was on the phone I was bored and started to drunk pose. In my head it was America's Next Top Model and I was "smiling with my eyes"

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Its a horrible pic...I had gone from work to Burritoville and then straight to tipsy without any stops along the way for make up. ( or sense)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

But I was determined to take a decent picture! Even if the fucking sun was in my eyes.

 

Today is "Bring your Sons & Daughters to Work Day" Every year I end up with all the kiddies in my office area . I have a soft spot for small animals...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I decided we had a boy who was too confident and felt he should have a taste of girl power...Attack minions!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

We girlz attack in packs!

 

So all in all two groovy days so far. I had even managed to get a ride from bf  (Jean) this morning to work which meant an extra 45 mins of sleep!

Fucking awesome!

So thats my update so far. I hope the day wraps up as nicely.

Started my day with a Redline and cheesy tostada while listening to Death in June's " She said destroy". Now thats how you start a day after only 3 hours of sleep. It also might be why I'm anxious and everything is going in super slow motion. And most likely my reason for freaking out about  Twitter. My goodness this stuff is liquid crystal meth!

 I wont lie, I have a very contrary nature. When I heard about how dangerous Redline was and how Lindsey Lohan lost all this weight drinking it and relatives fear for her  I immediately went out and bought some.

 

Will I ever learn my lesson? Most likely not.